Mommy x 2 - Nicole Ramel

I really struggled with writing this because I wasn't sure where to go with it but I figured I would just be transparent. Being a mom to a newborn again with a six-year-old is freaking hard. My six-year-old is very independent and has been for the last 2 years. When baby girl came into our lives, I forgot how time-consuming feedings were, having to pack the diaper bag, and how hard it was to try and give attention to my son when the baby needed something. Also, our laundry has seemingly tripled. All the things I planned to do on maternity leave didn't get done. It also didn't help that she decided to come two weeks early so her room wasn't even ready yet. I will say that despite the chaos, baby girl sleeps at night and that has helped maintain my sanity. Having a baby in winter also presented its own challenges mentally. It wasn't planned for her to be so far apart from her brother but it's just how life goes sometimes. It took us 3 years to have her, 2 of those years being a rollercoaster of infertility testing and treatments. 

Coming back to work has been refreshing but exhausting as we navigate our new normal. I fully admit coming back full time has been a bit overwhelming but I'm managing the best I can. Baby girl is almost 5 months now and just when we seem to have an idea of what to expect she shakes it up again, but such is life.